Some thoughts

So my life is conglomeration of events that do not necessarily mean something by themselves, but together they make a hard path to a beautiful end. I have become a beach bum that loves the OBX. I get to be there in a week. CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I struggle with my spiritual life. I struggle with the whole concept of grace. My mind can't comprehend that I am loved no matter what I do. I know I don't do the things I should do, but yet he loves me anyway. I just can't comprehend it and struggle daily.